Tag Archives: grief

Pre-Memorial


I apologize for my distinct lack of desire to relive this, but alas, it’s history, it’s not ‘flowing’ or coming out as easily as other writings have…it’s overwhelming at times and I just have to step away and take a … Continue reading

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Insomnia, the cat, and crying at the kitchen table


I have been minimally surviving the last several day, re-living Dad’s dying is still so very painful to walk through again.  Add to that I have run out of sleep meds and there’s a snafu with the prescription, I’ve been … Continue reading

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Day 6 with Dad at Hospice


Day 6 with Dad (Monday, April 22, 2013) Continuing to witness Dad’s health’s decline, the watching and waiting, the hyper vigilance is exhausting, but time is a gift, even now.  My brain is beginning its own slow decline.  I’m meshing … Continue reading

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Day 5 with Dad (Sunday, April 21, 2013)


Day 5 with Dad (Sunday, April 21, 2013) Dad is declining, slowly.  Sometimes his hands and feet are warm, and sometimes they’re cold as ice.  I know this is a natural process and I appreciate the comfort, confidence and calmness … Continue reading

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Day 3 (continued) and Day 4 with Dad


[Please note the actual events happened on the days and dates in parenthesis.  I really had great intentions of communicating this to you, dear readers, but like many thoughts lately, it’s there and then, poof, it’s gone!  I’m sorry for … Continue reading

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In the Waiting


Dad is still in the hospital and we are waiting, just waiting.  Over the weekend I re-read Dad’s Living Will/Advanced Health Care Directives.  I cried.  Last time I read it, I got choked up and put it away.  There is … Continue reading

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Time, TBI & Death


I hate death.  No.  Really.  I do.  I have not been on speaking terms with death since my Mom passed away when I was just 16, and she was in her early 50’s. My kitty with Kidney Disease had a … Continue reading

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