We’ve often seen the signs, it is easier to take the foot off the gas pedal and slow our vehicle down than our lives.
I am learning a new set of signs for driving my life: Yield (rest, take breaks), Stop (I am too tired, overwhelmed, etc.), Detour (not an option right now), Construction Zone (be patient with self), and Merge (path ended, must flow with life, choose acceptance.)
It seems for now, at least, about a half a day is all I can manage whether it be housework, work, or errands. Self-care is taking a much higher priority than before. So, pacing and planning become much more of an art and science for survivability, to be able to travel wisely and safely.
I have to go back to the basic rules of the Brain Injury defensive driving road. Rest. Proper diet. Exercise. Hydration. Limit stimuli and certainly manage my stress.
Caffeine doesn’t help spark my brain whatsoever. My Neurologist said years ago when I asked if it was okay to use, he said yes, it wasn’t detrimental or habit forming. It is odd my crutch no longer works. I’m not able to exceed the posted speed limit or drive farther.
I find it interesting the place where I was hit had one of those signs preceding it. The speed limit had been 35, reduced to 30 MPH. I had no idea then what that would end up meaning to my life, and brain.
I have doubled my meds and that helped steady my mood, although this afternoon felt ready to cry, knew it was tired brain telling me I’ve tried to push mileage again today and to yield.
Time to put my brain in park and let it rest…